H50 Fic - Regret

[shinysylver]

Title: Regret
Author:shinysylver
Characters/Pairing: Chin; references to Chin/Malia and Chin/Laura
Word Count: 100
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I don't own Hawaii Five-0.
Summary: Chin has regrets.
Author's Note: mmom Day 23. So I know I usually post at midnight-ish but my BFF was visiting all weekend and well I did good to only delay one of these. It's not even really delayed because it's still the 23rd and will be for a long time. :D



Sometimes he wondered what things would have been like if only. If only he hadn't pushed Malia away. If only Laura hadn't been killed. If only he had only acted sooner. If only he had been more...something. He couldn't be everything for everyone and now he was no one for anyone, spending his nights alone in bed dreaming of better times as he jerked himself roughly, hoping to forget. Or remember. He wasn't really sure which. He just wanted to feel something--anything--but as soon as his orgasm passed reality intruded and he was left with nothing but regret.

Comments

[loveinadoorway.livejournal.com]

Oh, this is so sad and poignant - if one may say that about... wank ficcery.
Poor Chin.

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

You mean self love isn't supposed to be a gut wrenching exercise in angst? Maybe I've been doing it wrong...;)

Seriously, thank you for the nice comment. :D

[loveinadoorway.livejournal.com]

LOL, it was actually only after I almost bawled that I noticed it was an acto of worship in the church of man love....
Which in itself may well be a compliment.

[jesseofthenorth.livejournal.com]

Dude I thought he wasnt on your shit list anymore!
You're not supposed to make a guy cry when he whacks off!
Still...
Nice work :D

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

Okay seriously, Steve is my favorite and I hurt him ALL THE TIME. I was just thinking as I was writing this that it means I must really be liking Chin these days too. :D

Oh, and thanks!

[whogeek.livejournal.com]

Awww, poor Chin. **smishes him** He does need someone to love.

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

He does, and now that I don't hate him for the ridiculous loan shark thing any more I hope he gets someone. LOL.

Thanks for reading

[somehowunbroken]

Oh, Chin :( I just want to hug him.

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

I have a feeling he could use a few hugs.

Thanks for reading!

[kitmerlot1213.livejournal.com]

Damn, this is killing me! Poor Chin, so filled with pain.

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

Yeah, much of it he brings on himself (like Malia) but maybe he'll figure it out.

Thanks for reading!

[whittyrabbit.livejournal.com]

I really really really like Malia. Hope could see she and Chin get back together. So much better than the other COUPLE (who're NOT supposed to get back together).

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

I would like to see Malia on the show again too.

Thanks for reading!

[teddibear.livejournal.com]

Oh poor Chin. *hugz him* I love your wangst (and I love that word).