H50 Fic - Regret

[shinysylver]

Title: Regret
Author:shinysylver
Characters/Pairing: Chin; references to Chin/Malia and Chin/Laura
Word Count: 100
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I don't own Hawaii Five-0.
Summary: Chin has regrets.
Author's Note: mmom Day 23. So I know I usually post at midnight-ish but my BFF was visiting all weekend and well I did good to only delay one of these. It's not even really delayed because it's still the 23rd and will be for a long time. :D



Sometimes he wondered what things would have been like if only. If only he hadn't pushed Malia away. If only Laura hadn't been killed. If only he had only acted sooner. If only he had been more...something. He couldn't be everything for everyone and now he was no one for anyone, spending his nights alone in bed dreaming of better times as he jerked himself roughly, hoping to forget. Or remember. He wasn't really sure which. He just wanted to feel something--anything--but as soon as his orgasm passed reality intruded and he was left with nothing but regret.

Comments

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

You mean self love isn't supposed to be a gut wrenching exercise in angst? Maybe I've been doing it wrong...;)

Seriously, thank you for the nice comment. :D

[loveinadoorway.livejournal.com]

LOL, it was actually only after I almost bawled that I noticed it was an acto of worship in the church of man love....
Which in itself may well be a compliment.